Hello Princess I am sitting in the kitchen writing this and have just sent a letter and cheque to Macmillan , you raised for over £2000 and it will all go to help others who suffered like you did. I am sad more than it shows to anyone . We had so many wonderful years and so many difficult ones too . We were both becoming truly exhausted by the battle and I know by all the things you did that you knew the end was coming . I don’t think I did , I don’t think I wanted to know and I didn’t get a chance to protect you in the end. I wasn’t there to talk to the surgeon , I wasnt there to hold your hand and whisper a prayer with you and I didn’t get a chance to bless you as you went in for surgery . I didn’t kiss you goodbye but i felt your going a couple of hours later and I begged you in the quiet of my mind to fight and stay but it wasn’t to be . I know that’s better for you because you would not have wanted to live a life less full , but I know I won’t ever be the same , I am less , I am half of what I was with you. I loved caring for you and I will do everything now to care for your memory . I love you princess